10/12/08: this day is a day to remember. why? not bcos its a very joyful occasion, instead its a day dat make me weep & broke down. e things u said are unbelivable, jus like im listenin to somebody's story-tellin. i nvr expected this day to come, but i guess its fated. i cant believe there dere are so many things that i didnt noe, until somebody sees it, & no choice, u gotta admit. & e dilemma i met, choosing btw me & her tgt or without me & her. i cant accept e fact that im actually answering such a qns, hw stupid i am?
e stubborn me went to look at yr phone, im superbly impressed by e msges. u can call 2 person dear at e same time. & still ask me not to think so much. wow wow wow. why cant u just tell me that u've someone else in mind, jus break up wit me & thats it? its at least better that having 2 person at once & i didnt noe anything. rachel, why r u so silly, so so silly! still asking him if we could go back to e past, impossible! wake up rachel, pls wake up! its not worth it anymore, too much lies, too much hatred, love is out of control. e words u spoke were different everyday, dono which one to trust right now. u're no longer e person that i always trust, no longer.
my friends, i must totally thanks. came down to brainwash me & let me see clearly how a person can changes over night. thanks guys! even though its so late & havin to wrk early e nxt mrning, u guys stil came down immediately to make sure im safe & help me sort out things. im truly touched, even a r/s is gone but i learnt that friendship always last. yes i love u, i truly do. but i guess i gotta stop it, if not im just hurting myself. my heart aches, really aches, never been so painful before.